„Mama has a ‚health issue'“
The story of a family from Vienna Introduction: How can young children recount or even write about what they have experienced in the past year and a half? Of course, they can’t. Nevertheless, in my opinion, it’s beautiful and worthwhile for them and their experiences to have a voice and be documented with my help. Fortunately, the publisher shares this opinion, and so I do my best to put their perspective on paper as accurately as possible. To make the interview understandable, I would like to digress a bit and talk about myself, my „health issue,“ and my „awareness awakening.“ I deliberately avoid using the word „illness“ because this has been one of the first realizations over the past year and a half: the thoughts and words we use have incredibly great power. So we pay attention to the sometimes quiet and sometimes loud voices in our heads, and we start by changing them first to consciously formulate spoken words positively. Therefore, the decision was made after the initial shock due to my diagnosis on March 8, 2022 (how fitting – on International Women’s Day) at not even 40 years old, that I would pay attention to the thoughts going through my head and the words I use to describe my situation. On one hand, the expression „health issue“ has an „open ending“ for me, or represents an empowerment to take my fate into my own hands. In a way, it also sounds much more positive than „illness“ and from the beginning gave me hope to perceive my situation not negatively but as an opportunity. Terms like cancer, tumor, growth, and others all carry too much negative vibration, which I wanted to avoid from the start. Not only because of the children, but also for myself. Added to this was a very positive and uplifting book that came into my hands. Dr. Kelly A. Turner’s book: „Radical Remission: Surviving Cancer Against All Odds“ gave me a lot of strength and hope in the early days after the diagnosis. Perhaps even a little bit „too much of a good thing.“ As is likely for most of us, it was inexplicable to me why I received a cancer diagnosis. In the material world, everything seemed more than fine. I was living the dream come true for many people: successful man, beautiful house in Vienna, good job in the family business, and three children. Many would say, „What more could a woman want? Everything is there to be happy.“ But I was anything but happy. I was at the end of my rope, I was stressed and unhappy. Added to this were the SARS-CoV pandemic and the fact that my father died of metastatic lung cancer from COVID-19 at the end of 2020. It was simply too much, and the energy in my body could no longer flow freely, leading to an energy blockage that manifested as a tumor in my right breast. At that time, I was in a constant survival mode, and my life force (Chi) could no longer flow freely. Those are clear words and a very valuable realization that I was able to gain over the past year and a half after reading numerous books, meditations, and journeys within. A rather simple explanation of my „health issue,“ which conventional medical professionals cannot or may not provide. When asked „Where does the cancer actually come from? Why do I have this ‚health issue‘?“ patients still mostly receive the answer: „We don’t know.“ For me, that was not a satisfying answer, and I embarked on a search. I found answers in other cultures. Traditional Chinese medicine, shamanism, both of the indigenous peoples of the Americas, Africa, and ancient Europe, Ayurvedic medicine, and ultimately quantum medicine and epigenetics all have an answer to my question. A tumor is the stagnation of (life) energy, of Chi. A disharmony, an imbalance in the body between Yin and Yang. Ultimately, everything in the universe is pure energy, and I was convinced that I had found my way and received the answers to my questions. My thoughts after the initial diagnosis were: „No problem, I got this, I just need to take better care of myself, find balance, and it will be okay. Let’s do the surgery, remove the troublemaker, and it will be done. I don’t need chemotherapy or hormone therapy, I can heal myself with this new knowledge.“ But life taught me otherwise, as the tumor returned less than six months after the surgery. I once again lost my footing and had to receive another lesson from the universe: the power of self-healing is something special, divine, wonderful, which I simply did not possess at that time and under the given circumstances. My mental and spiritual development were not yet at that level. It may be that someone who focuses one hundred percent on healing after the diagnosis, perhaps going to a silent monastery or to the jungle to meditate with a shaman all day long, can bring about healing through their own power after some time. However, in my case, with three young children, it simply was not possible. I had to realize that by considering the relationship between conventional medicine and so-called complementary medicine (in the sense of alternative to Western medicine), I had fallen into the widespread trap of exclusion. But exclusion is never the solution. Not even for my health issue. So, in the spirit of „Namaste,“ „all is one,“ or simply as the word in Hungarian for health, egészség, literally translated means „wholeness,“ I embarked on a new path of healing through inclusion, patience, and love. It was also interesting that, contrary to expectations, it was an Ayurvedic doctor who convinced me to accept chemotherapy. He said the active ingredient in chemotherapy, Paclitaxel, is a herbal substance derived from the bark of the Pacific yew. This surprised me a lot, so I followed the call of my heart and changed my treating doctor. He has been accompanying me
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